Im just a little bit caught in the middle.

there are times when i really want to be joyful for someone else finding their happiness. unfortunately, this is not one of those times…i don’t want to tack on a smile, shrug my shoulders and pretend that everything is ok. i don’t want to rejoice in someone else, when the source of their said happiness is directly the reason that i am sad. i want to be bitter, i want to dislike everything about the situation, i want to stalk them on facebook and really wish that they’d get around to creating dislike buttons. i want to wish that my life didn’t always feel like a 30 minute dramedy sitcom that premiered on ‘Lifetime, Television for Women’ to high ratings. for once, i’d like to find my own happiness. just that little piece of sunshine that is mine and mine alone.