Im just a little bit caught in the middle.

just before our love got lost, you said: “i am as constant as the northern star”

and i said, “constantly in the darkness? wheres that at? if you need me i’ll be in the bar.”

that one verse. that one little thought. it speaks so completely about my life. of how someone or some people will come up with a certain idea of who or what i am. what knowing me will do to them. how i could make their lives better or give them some sense of direction. but me? what i know, is that i AM constantly in the darkness. that i can’t guide them home. be their shining light at the end of the tunnel. that mostly, i don’t even know how to give myself direction. that mostly, i am just as lost and scared as the rest, i just hide it very well.