For Women Who Are Difficult To Love by Warsan Shire
“for women who are ‘difficult’ to love.”
you are a horse running alone
and he tries to tame you
compares you to an impossible highway
to a burning house
says you are blinding him
that he could never leave you
want anything but you
you dizzy him, you are unbearable
every woman before or after you
is doused in your name
you fill his mouth
his teeth ache with memory of taste
his body just a long shadow seeking yours
but you are always too intense
frightening in the way you want him
unashamed and sacrificial
he tells you that no man can live up to the one who
lives in your head
and you tried to change didn’t you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love.
Maybe I love too hard.
Maybe I squeeze far too tight.
Maybe I see all the things that you never could.
But at least I have loved.
At least I have arms to wrap around you and caress your feelings with.
At least I can see in you what you never could.
At least I can love. Still.
If the rain were to fall from the cheeks of clouds as tears from mine,
We would be stuck in a sea of our own making. Brittle and choppy.
High force winds rattle through my nostrils and gush from my coughing mouth.
This is the weather forecast for when we part.
‘You are my sunshine. My only sunshine. You make me happy, when sky’s are grey’
The song that prattles about in my brain as I stretch out my hand to hold yours. Interlocking warmth. Making promises. Professing love.
"I, too, remember the feeling. You are caught between all that was and all that must be. You feel lost."
"I am scared of falling in love, of craving you every second of every day, of needing you, of being addicted to you. I am scared of missing you more than I can handle, of losing you and myself in you. I am scared of not being enough, and of seeing my insufficiency in your eyes."
"I want you to promise me something. If you love someone, you tell them. Even if you’re scared that it’s not the right thing. Even if you’re scared that it’ll cause problems. Even if you’re scared that it will burn your life to the ground. You say it, and you say it loud. And then you go from there."
"If everybody likes you, you’re pretty dull."
"Growth is painful. Change is painful.But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong."
"Let people feel the weight of who you are and let them deal with it."